Homework from Missuz J
Missuz J had a homework assignment that she gave her students this week and challenged all her blog readers to complete it too, BY FRIDAY!!!! So here it goes:
Shawna is a hard working single mom, pet owner, sister/daughter of a totally neurotic family, a social worker, a Christian, who is so tired she can't see straight most of the time.
Who wants to fall in love with someone who is worthy of her love and time, to find a job that doesn't drain her of her life force, nothing but happiness and health for her son/family/and friends, to be a size twelve again someday before she dies, to love herself and all her faults, to be able not to work and stay home with my son(and not feel guilty for it)
Who wishes she could show her weaker side to people, she had more money and time to spend with her son, her ex-husband would quit drugs and become the father he once was for her son's sake, she could go to Hawaii, she could love a man with 100% of her heart without losing a most of herself in the process.
Who needs some peace in her life, a personal trainer to whip her into shape, unconditional love, to be needed, to forgive herself before expecting others to forgive her, to be content with who she is and where she is in her life, to trust more, another 2 hours of sleep every morning!
Who used to think she could do anything she put her mind to, to think that life gave you chance after chance for happiness and love, have an awesome body, want to become an actress, think she needed acceptance from a man to be whole, laugh more and cry less, put men in her life before her relationship with God!
Who now is learning life is what you make of it, has a less than awesome body but a beautiful child to show for it, knows she deserves better from a man than what she has been given in the past, has forgiven her father for never being there in her life, is a deeply spiritual person who believes miracles CAN happen, is learning that being alone doesn't have to mean being lonely.
Who is afraid of child molesters, drug dealers, my child dying, of being alone forever, driving in the snow, CLOWNS!!!!, not meeting the expectations placed on me, losing my mind completely.
Who will someday enter the gates of Heaven, go to Hawaii, watch my son get married and have children, meet the man God intended for me and to be able to love myself just the way I am !
Shawna is a hard working single mom, pet owner, sister/daughter of a totally neurotic family, a social worker, a Christian, who is so tired she can't see straight most of the time.
Who wants to fall in love with someone who is worthy of her love and time, to find a job that doesn't drain her of her life force, nothing but happiness and health for her son/family/and friends, to be a size twelve again someday before she dies, to love herself and all her faults, to be able not to work and stay home with my son(and not feel guilty for it)
Who wishes she could show her weaker side to people, she had more money and time to spend with her son, her ex-husband would quit drugs and become the father he once was for her son's sake, she could go to Hawaii, she could love a man with 100% of her heart without losing a most of herself in the process.
Who needs some peace in her life, a personal trainer to whip her into shape, unconditional love, to be needed, to forgive herself before expecting others to forgive her, to be content with who she is and where she is in her life, to trust more, another 2 hours of sleep every morning!
Who used to think she could do anything she put her mind to, to think that life gave you chance after chance for happiness and love, have an awesome body, want to become an actress, think she needed acceptance from a man to be whole, laugh more and cry less, put men in her life before her relationship with God!
Who now is learning life is what you make of it, has a less than awesome body but a beautiful child to show for it, knows she deserves better from a man than what she has been given in the past, has forgiven her father for never being there in her life, is a deeply spiritual person who believes miracles CAN happen, is learning that being alone doesn't have to mean being lonely.
Who is afraid of child molesters, drug dealers, my child dying, of being alone forever, driving in the snow, CLOWNS!!!!, not meeting the expectations placed on me, losing my mind completely.
Who will someday enter the gates of Heaven, go to Hawaii, watch my son get married and have children, meet the man God intended for me and to be able to love myself just the way I am !
I loved your poem. You are a strong, independant woman, and I am sure as hell proud of you.
I didn't know you were afraid of clowns. Makes me go hmmmmmmmmm.
Posted by
Kodi |
3:55 PM
Sorry I didn't get around to commenting on this before.
I can tell from all I've read about you that you are one hell of a strong lady. I hope you come visit Kods some day soon so that I can get the chance to really sit and talk with you.
Posted by
Missuz J |
3:59 PM