Wah Wah Post
Hi Trishie, Thanks for the kick in the butt to blog again. Well the last month has truly been a struggle and my mama always said if you don't have anything nice to say...well you know the rest. Blogging was not the only thing I was slacking on last month, I was also slacking on eating right and working out. Since I wanted this to be a weight LOSS type blog, I was embarrassed about my progress(or lack there of). SO here it is, I have gained, lost, re-gained, and lost a little of 5 lbs for about a month now. I am so frustrated at myself and my apparent lack of will power. Instead of having on Wheat Thin, I have the whole box, or one piece of pizza, I have 4. AGHHHH.. this has been my problem my whole life and I am sooo sick of it.
It seems as like if I don't have this HUGE pressure to the lose weight (like the wedding), I just eat whatever I want. It makes no sense since I worked so hard to get the first 25 lbs off, that I would sabotage anymore weight loss. Is it because I have soooo much more I want to lose (75lbs), is it that I have no man in my life to impress, is it that I am afraid if I DO lose all the weight I want, I still won't be attractive to the opposite sex, am I just lazy????????????? The answer to all of those questions is YES YES YES!!!! I need to get rid of my self-sabotage and emotional eating, but I am not sure how to do that.
On a more positive note, I have joined a gym and have been working out 3 times a week. Whereas before I didn't do any kind of exercise, I can now stay on the elliptical for 20 minutes...WHO HOOOOO. Believe me people that is no small feat for me, when I started at only 6 minutes. I am very excited about my trip to Utah to see all of my family, whom I haven't seen for 6 yrs. I miss them so much. So there you have it my Wah Wah blog. hopefully next time I will have a more positive post to ummm Post
It seems as like if I don't have this HUGE pressure to the lose weight (like the wedding), I just eat whatever I want. It makes no sense since I worked so hard to get the first 25 lbs off, that I would sabotage anymore weight loss. Is it because I have soooo much more I want to lose (75lbs), is it that I have no man in my life to impress, is it that I am afraid if I DO lose all the weight I want, I still won't be attractive to the opposite sex, am I just lazy????????????? The answer to all of those questions is YES YES YES!!!! I need to get rid of my self-sabotage and emotional eating, but I am not sure how to do that.
On a more positive note, I have joined a gym and have been working out 3 times a week. Whereas before I didn't do any kind of exercise, I can now stay on the elliptical for 20 minutes...WHO HOOOOO. Believe me people that is no small feat for me, when I started at only 6 minutes. I am very excited about my trip to Utah to see all of my family, whom I haven't seen for 6 yrs. I miss them so much. So there you have it my Wah Wah blog. hopefully next time I will have a more positive post to ummm Post
