And then the world exploded....
Hi all,
I am sure that all of you have given up on me since I haven't posted since June. In my defense, I have summers off and have no computer at home sooo.... But yes I have been back to work since the end of August, so you may/may not wonder why no posting. Well since you asked here is goes (for those of you who don't want to join in on my pity party stop reading now!!!!!!)
My job was cut to 3 days a week and so I had to find another part time job to make ends meet. Well since I am a glutton for punishment I applied for an Elem counselor position that was only 2 days a week. I never thought I would get the job, but miracle of miracles...I GOT IT. So I spent the first month of summer taking tests and preparing for this new scary ultra responsible job. STRESS STRESS STRESS, but I survived. During this time my son decided to become a depressed teenager and try to buck every rule I had for him. He would get mad(mostly over something his girlfriend would say/do)and just leave the house walking in the middle of the night without saying a word. Once the cops stopped him before I could find him(because it was after curfew) and had to hold him until I got there. He wouldn't listen to them either. I was pulling my hair out thinking I was the worst mother ever and had to resort to asking his crackhead dad for help. He just screamed and scared the hell out of my son, and things didn't get better. Now he is listening and semi-back to normal although his girlfriend dumped him and now he hates girls and mopes around a lot...But at least he is safe.
Then my what was left of my world came crashing around my ears when my dad asked my mom for a divorce after 30 yrs of marriage. I couldn't breathe!!!!! My mom tried to kill herself and I had to spend the 4th of July in the hospital wondering if she was going to make it. She did, but wishes that she hadn't. Then a week later my 18 year old sister had a nervous breakdown over the divorce and the emotionality of the whole thing and I had to convince the mental health "professionals" that she did NOT need to be locked in the psych ward. Funny thing is they never once thought of doing this to my mom who actually attempted suicide....WHAT IDIOTS. SO my summer has been spent trying to hold what was left of my family together and fielding 20 calls a day from my mother hysterically bawling, and my sister hysterical and hating my mom. Now my dad is dating his 2nd ex wife who made mine and my mothers life HELL while I was in high school. It just never ends.
Then my grandfather died my first week back to work and I thought I wasn't gonna make it. this caused my mom to fall apart again as well as my sister and my dad. I have really contemplated becoming an alcoholic just to cope with the stress, but have decided to EAT myself to death instead. Don't be surprised if the headlines soon read "Had to cut 500 lb woman out of her house to take to the hospital" and tomorrow is my birthday, so add old age to the list of negatives that have become my life. Aren't ya glad I posted again :o. This is me signing off until I have something more positive to post.
I am sure that all of you have given up on me since I haven't posted since June. In my defense, I have summers off and have no computer at home sooo.... But yes I have been back to work since the end of August, so you may/may not wonder why no posting. Well since you asked here is goes (for those of you who don't want to join in on my pity party stop reading now!!!!!!)
My job was cut to 3 days a week and so I had to find another part time job to make ends meet. Well since I am a glutton for punishment I applied for an Elem counselor position that was only 2 days a week. I never thought I would get the job, but miracle of miracles...I GOT IT. So I spent the first month of summer taking tests and preparing for this new scary ultra responsible job. STRESS STRESS STRESS, but I survived. During this time my son decided to become a depressed teenager and try to buck every rule I had for him. He would get mad(mostly over something his girlfriend would say/do)and just leave the house walking in the middle of the night without saying a word. Once the cops stopped him before I could find him(because it was after curfew) and had to hold him until I got there. He wouldn't listen to them either. I was pulling my hair out thinking I was the worst mother ever and had to resort to asking his crackhead dad for help. He just screamed and scared the hell out of my son, and things didn't get better. Now he is listening and semi-back to normal although his girlfriend dumped him and now he hates girls and mopes around a lot...But at least he is safe.
Then my what was left of my world came crashing around my ears when my dad asked my mom for a divorce after 30 yrs of marriage. I couldn't breathe!!!!! My mom tried to kill herself and I had to spend the 4th of July in the hospital wondering if she was going to make it. She did, but wishes that she hadn't. Then a week later my 18 year old sister had a nervous breakdown over the divorce and the emotionality of the whole thing and I had to convince the mental health "professionals" that she did NOT need to be locked in the psych ward. Funny thing is they never once thought of doing this to my mom who actually attempted suicide....WHAT IDIOTS. SO my summer has been spent trying to hold what was left of my family together and fielding 20 calls a day from my mother hysterically bawling, and my sister hysterical and hating my mom. Now my dad is dating his 2nd ex wife who made mine and my mothers life HELL while I was in high school. It just never ends.
Then my grandfather died my first week back to work and I thought I wasn't gonna make it. this caused my mom to fall apart again as well as my sister and my dad. I have really contemplated becoming an alcoholic just to cope with the stress, but have decided to EAT myself to death instead. Don't be surprised if the headlines soon read "Had to cut 500 lb woman out of her house to take to the hospital" and tomorrow is my birthday, so add old age to the list of negatives that have become my life. Aren't ya glad I posted again :o. This is me signing off until I have something more positive to post.
